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lalala [13 Feb 2006|05:37pm]
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Avoidant || 10%
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Physical Fitness |||| 17%
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Hypersensitivity |||||||||| 36%
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[22 Jan 2006|11:43pm]
I'm going to buy a "real" journal tomorrow. I can't stand typing, and I need something that I can communicate with that I won't hold back on.

Busy and confused, and for some odd reason everyone's being really, really nice to me. I still feel bad.
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[12 Jan 2006|02:03am]
i'm not really happy, at all. that's a change from the usual.

i'm just, confused. normally i don't even think enough about things to be confused about them.
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[16 Nov 2005|01:56am]
to cheer myself up i popped my collar and started learning php/mysql for dev'ing my website.

hah, i'm such a loser and i love it.
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[16 Nov 2005|01:01am]
god, sometimes i'm such an emotional wreck.

i wish i had you here to cry on, ave.
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[07 Nov 2005|01:42am]
So baby, baby come come, keep it close to home
A saxophone and a slide trombone
I hope we die the same night when we’re ninety-nine
I hope we go in our sleep as my diamond girl shines
Singing diamond, you’re my diamond
You're my sweet beauty diamond, miracle diamond
Diamond, you are my diamond
Sweet honey diamond, miracle diamond
Sweet beauty diamond, miracle diamond
You’re my miracle.
Every night and day, all the things you’ve ever said
You’ve always been my miracle, yeah
Everything you say
You've always been my miracle

Yeah, I know it's a corny lyrical post. I was thinking and these lyrics really struck me.
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[24 Oct 2005|01:27am]
i'm up later than i expected. i'm pretty sick, more sick than i've been for a while at least. this weekend was, well, interesting. i learned a lot about myself and how i deal with things. i learned a lot about how i feel around certain people.

i don't feel home at home anymore. home as a literal house, "my" house. i'm home in my area, just not in my home.

i am home in avery's home though, i feel like. i spent basically the entire weekend there, minus most of sunday. i seriously love her family even if they can be annoying. wow, it's just a like a real family. i'm family there i think...at least on the weekends now.

why is it, that seemingly terrible events can make you feel better in the end. aged, even. i feel fucking older. i don't know why. she says everything happens for a reason. i sure love to think of it like that, seriously. i love her. it happened for a reason. she loves me. she holds me tight, hah, it feels good.

i hadn't updated in a while. i kinda felt obligated, this weekend's been emotional.

feel well, ave. i love ya.
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[23 Jul 2005|01:22am]
i did something very stupid that hurt a number of totally innocent people, one of which whom i love more than anything, ever.

fucking idiot, i am.
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today's thoughts [02 Apr 2005|10:57pm]
As much as I despise working, it does occasionally give me some time to do some thinking. Naturally, the thinking was based around what's been my life recently, which is Avery. :D

I'm in love, see, and I found one point that really stuck in my head about love today:
Love is least shown by simply stating it. The expression needs to be deeper than words (which it is, for me) and your actions need to show your expression (which is what I feel I need to work on).

I get mad, sometimes, and I take her for granted sometimes too. I feel worse and worse about it. I've lied, too, and that only causes more problems. BUT, I love her more than everything. I can say that all I want but I need to show it better, I need to listen better, and I need to act on it better.

I honestly believe that Avery is my future. Foolish as that may sound to whoever might read this, I feel that we have "what it takes", have you, we're deeply in love with eachother and we both /really/ want it work out out.

She tells me that she hates it whenever I leave, and I do too. But a lot of times I don't say it because I'd rather not think about it. I need to say it. It's tough to be apart from her.

I know that I could love her better, and that bothers me. I could be so much better. I don't want her to ever think that I don't love her, that's all. I want her to know for sure.

I'll work on it.
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[25 Mar 2005|03:42pm]
'been a few days.

school's had me bogged down for the last few weeks, but now pretty much everything is over with, and I'm smack in the middle of my spring break.

yesterday (thursday) i hit up old country buffet with tim, adam, matt, jake brunner and ashely secunda (kind of unexpected). totally screwed over my diet, so for the rest of the day i didn't care what i ate, which pretty much broke down like this: pizza, mashed potatoes, french fries, ice cream, oreos, rita's gelati, and nachos, plus more. 'saw hitch with avery, later on that day after meeting up with her around 2. i liked it, she thought it was alright ;P.

today was pretty awesome, just a great day in general. spent a couple hours at montco :D. 'went to the mall afterwards for nothing in particular. i ended up picking up carl orff's carmina burana from fye, and ave and i got salads from salad sensations. after the mall we picked up a coloring book and copied a few pages out of it for some less fortunate kids we're cooking day-before-easter easter-dinner lunch for with youth group. got it? ate some sketters for dinner, too. i just...love having her with me, avery. makes me feel good all over. :P

i like makeshift fixing things. my xbl headset broke (moreso than before) so at first i tried to flame graft it onto my headphones thinger, but that didn't work, so i whipped out the krazy glue and it's better than it even was before. ihate getting that stuff on my fingers. anyway...i'll be playing some halo 2 online tonight, so hit me up if you want to play some.

monday's the 10 month-iversary for ave and i. i'll only see her till like 3:45 though...:(
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[13 Mar 2005|09:59pm]
A lot has happened in the last few days...most notably stuff that I'd prefer to not go in to where everyone will read it. Funny how I specifically state how I hate how people come on LJ and bitch about stuff they won't say. Ah well.

People are hypocrites, is what most of it boils down to.

This morning sucked, and I was having some pretty terrible thoughts running through my head...I don't know why, it didn't fit the situation.

Luckily the day brightened up once I got to Avery's house. We went to see Kotaro Fukuma at Montco, he's a Japanese pianist who's apparently getting some amount of recognition in the classical music world. His performance was really good, I thought. Afterwards we hung out at her house and her grandmother ordered pizza (and wings for me, which was cool_, even if it took me forever to finish them vs. everyone else eating pizza). Watched a bit of her brother play Halo and then stood around in the kitchen and talked for over an hour...it was a good talk, too. We're great, and honestly that's such a relief to me after what "went on" over the last day.

This upcoming week I've got a rough draft of my research paper due on Wednesday, I'll probably be working on that periods 2, and 4/5 on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Not like I've got anything better to do, though. Work schedule sucks this week, I'm quitting as soon as I can get my web business up and going...I have a name and a logo for it, at least: NeoDynamic Web Studios. Whatcha'll think?
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[09 Mar 2005|09:39pm]
Welcome to March, Aaron.

This school year is ticking along so fast..too fast, I feel, at times. I'm going to miss the friends I can't keep in close-contact with due to some circumstance or another, but here's definitely hoping I'll be able to keep a good number of the guys within some sort of ear and/or train-shot away, for advice and just having a good time...

One thing that isn't going by that fast though is winter. Blah, I want spring already.

Things with Avery are going good, great, even. I never would've imagined it lasting this long, but we've got 9 months under our belt and are going pretty strongly towards 10. We may have some minor problems, but thinking in retrospect to our entire relationship, they just don't matter, and won't. Terence, an ancient Roman comic playwright and dramatist, once wrote, "The quarrels of lovers are the renewal of love." I think that that really couldn't be more true.

And yeah I've been reading up on my quotes. :P Ch-Ch-Check it out.
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[27 Feb 2005|10:04pm]
Updating just because today was a good day.

Snowtubing for a bit with the good old (yet increasinly retarded) youth group crew + Zach's girlfriend thing that looks like a vampire dog that giggles a lot. Earlier today was a bit more fun though. :O

Couldn't get a hold of anyone this weekend to do much of anything with. Friday night lateness crept up quick and I tossed around the idea of getting some people together to go to Applebee's last night but that fell through. Another weekend, hopefully. Ave and I went, at least. :P

Anyway...yeah, that's about it. *Hoping* for no school tomorrow. Shall see. May the skies bless us with 1ft+ of snow.
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[21 Feb 2005|09:43pm]
It's been a while; I've been here but there hasn't been much of anything to post about.

I'm listening to The Format; it's reminding me of Summer. Both some good and bad feelings there, but nothing can be done about the past, yeah?

Life's good, though. Great, even. I'm satisfied, currently. I've got what I've got and I'm happy with it. The feeling from that alone is good, but also knowing that since you're good, other people are feeling better is great.

Work today sucked, but it does that occasionally. Oh well, today as a whole was good, hung out with Ave in the early hours. 10am. Hah...school tomorrow. :(. Break was so good.

Family's good, Kate's birthday was last week. Avery's doing pretty well too, with the exception of a few issues here and there she's great, and our relationship is thriving. And yeah, I mentioned her in the family paragraph on purpose. :P

Lets go back to our house.
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[05 Feb 2005|09:53pm]
had a dream last night that the eagles won 48-11, and also that my mom encouraged me to take the van out with my girlfriend and do "what boys do".

wtf!?
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[30 Jan 2005|10:05pm]
We need more 3 day weekends, I think.

It was good...gooooood. :P

Friday was the 8th monthiversary deal with Ave. We got up for breakfast early and were eating by 9:30, then hung out for a bit around :D. Good day, indeed. Friday night into Saturday I hung with the boys for the night and had a good time. I got home around noon on Saturday and picked up Avery around 1:30ish, I think. We ended up just hanging out at my house for the majority of the day, but we talked a lot. It was one of those good, relationship-building times and I think I'm a lot closer to her than I was even the day before. Today for me was church, then youth group with Avery (cool_est girl in the world obviously)...with a few stops in between/after.

;D
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[27 Jan 2005|10:50pm]
Tomorrow will be awesome or else I'm going to kill some deity, somewhere.
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[25 Jan 2005|09:15pm]
Sick day...this morning I woke up around 5:30 with a horrible stomach ache, went to the bathroom and puked a little bit...woke up and went to go take a shower and puked again, showered, puked a lot more.

Then I went to school because of exams (and because I had to make a delivery to Avery :P). Determined first period that I was too sick to stay in school, and arrived home around 8:30...got on the computer and fell asleep online. That was a first.

Woke up a few minutes later, went to my bed still feeling sick and slept until 2:00. When I woke up my stomach was feeling better but I had a terrible headache. Ibuprofen, though, saved the day there.

I'm fine now...looks like I won't be going out tomorrow (afterschool) because it's snowing again (damnit!). I await Friday patiently...day off + Avery and my 8 month anniversary. :D

RD's in board transition phase (ie stress mode) as I look around and research new forums, and methods of transferring to the new forums.

My hair is getting a little too long for my tastes, on the back/sides at least. today it decided to cover my ears, but because it's naturally sightly wavy/curly it flipped up and looks pretty gay. Like, actually homosexual.

Work Thursday. Needa remember my hours.

Saying "Needa" reminds me of something that I will not mention, as it is very geeky. Google it, if you must.

Ciao.
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[20 Jan 2005|09:57pm]
I was in such a terrible mood yesterday, sorry to whoever that might have affected.

Snow sucks, I've determined. Espeicially when there's no school to be gotten out of (or rather, there is school to be gotten out of, but you don't), and it makes it impossible to travel safely. I stayed home and was miserable some more. Ave and I talked a bunch, about a lot. We love eachother. :D

Today was interesting, I suppose. School was about normal, nothing real out-of-the-ordinary occured. Work, though, I worked some trays and then went out for 1/2 hour to McDonald's for dinner for myself and 2 coworkers...then I took a 15 minute break. All paid, it was cool...

I need gas in my car, but I cashed my check already, so I can get it right away tomorrow.

Money's going to be coming slower in the next few weeks, I think. CVS is scaling back hours. The past three weeks I've worked two days per week for a total of ten hours a week, about $50 per check. Next week I'm only working one day, and that's about $23 on my check, which is just not enough.

Thought a lot today about Valentine's Day, I'm surrounded by it at CVS. I know what I'm going to get Ave, though! :D

(Don't worry, it's not "much" like you told me not to spend :P)
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[18 Jan 2005|09:22pm]
Hah,

It's really profound, to me, how just knowing that someone else is happy will make you happy, especially if you know that you're a part of why their feeling how they are.

After thinking about this for a few minutes, though, I realize that the inverse is probably also related in such a manner.

Therefore, I'll make sure that it never happens.

*poke
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